I'm sure with time these anniversaries will become less glaring in my mind. Like waking up hearing my Dad's final breaths, time changes all things. But certainly tonight, my mind is a swirl with many thoughts about my Dad, his life and the impact his death will have not just on me, but my sisters and our step-family.
I can't really go into full details but just let me say, the after-death issues are sometimes more complicated and damaging to relationships than the actual death itself. I saw this with my wife's family and hope things will go more smoothly in this case. Distance will make things slightly complicated but I think that we are all going to work together to make the most sense out of the final pieces of the puzzle.
I now wait for the moment to pass. It will only come once and then be gone, almost in the blink of an eye. It will mean little to anyone but me but I still await, as if the train is coming down the tracks and I want one more chance to grab a ride. But I know that the tracks came to an end a week ago. May the tears flow to cover the destructive path that life had followed. Leave behind the dryed salt like ancient sea beds and lead one beyond the trappings of a previous time. Let loose the bonds of life so that angels above can call your name and lead you to a righteous place. Be at peace. For your time has come. Whatever you believe is how you live and who you are. Be sure of your right and wrong. Be sure to be at peace. Go quietly but always know you will be remembered.
Posted by robdesign at April 15, 2004 12:35 AMI too was up at the same hour as you, and my thoughts were right there with you. Together, we did this, and together, we will continue to make it through. I am so proud of what you were able to do for MaryAnn and all throughout this terrible time. I love you.
elb
Posted by: Elizabeth at April 15, 2004 11:51 AMI hope each day gets a little easier for you Rob.
Posted by: Emily at April 15, 2004 09:49 PM